} don t tell me you know me well enough.

because i don t even know what i want.

i can t seem to choose the necessary things that i need. it is hard, knowing that everyone around me is moving on while i am still stuck here wondering what i should actually do. i seriously wonder about my results that i am going to collect in feb. right now, with nothing to do, i might as well enjoy it now then regret it later in the future.

you know , i thought after i have completed my 'o' level , i would be free? but god dam it , i am so wrong. every study steps i take is always wrong (for him). he can never understand the talents i have, the talents that i think i have. i know i was never wise in the family but that doesn t mean you have to put me down in every way?

after this entry, i don t want to mention it anymore because from here onwards, it is my choice and no one else. i just hoped that if i take the wrong path, i suffer alone and don t pull anyone down with me . it kinda sucks being somebody's burden.

i didn t do much today except watched chobits.

btw, pauline really made sense. when one day i am really sick of him, i should just take a break. i dunno if i am doing it correctly.